Life was better

Life was better before I knew he existed.

I didn’t feel empty knowing he didn’t know I existed,

Or that our relationship was only ever one way.

I didn’t know I’d never meet him, or that he would ever be more than just another human.

If I never knew he existed, I probably wouldn’t have cried so many times.

I wouldn’t get lost in his eyes, or his smile.

I wouldn’t dream up delusional scenarios of us meeting.

But he’ll never be just another person.

Life would be better if I didn’t know he existed.